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If I were a boy, Even just for a day
 Id roll out of bed in the morning
 And throw on what I wanted and go
 Standing outside my house

Trying to apologize
 You’re so ugly when you cry
 Please, just cut it out
 [Chorus]
 Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
 But you put on quite a show
 You really had me going

But now it’s time to go
 Curtain’s finally closing

That was quite a show
 Very entertaining
 But it’s over now

Go on and take a bow
 Grab your clothes and get gone
 You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
 Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one
 This just looks like the re-run
 Please, what else is on
 (Chorus)
 And the award for, the best lie goes to you
 For making me believe that you could be
 Faithful to me
 Let's hear your speech ohh
 How about a round of applause
 Standing ovation


♥ PROFILE

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30 oct 1991.
18
ite simei
single bitch

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Monday, October 30, 2006
7:03 AM

hey guyz..todae iz ma bdae! hahax.. de frenster time zone wrg la..hahax.. ytd nite at ard 11 pluz, fik was veri excited 2 b de ferst 2 wish mi 4 ma bdae at 12am..hehe..he didnt gif mi ani present but wat he wish 4 ma bdae was de most meaningful present of all..he wished mi hapi bdae at 12am exactly n he confessed everiting he feel bout uz since we noe each other..he tel mi al his thoughts..i was XO touched n i cried aft he said al tat..i juz couldnt control ma tears..no one eva said al tat 2 mi b4..nt even ma parentz, ma besties or ani of ma x..he was de first 2 do tat..u guyz wouldnt understand y it was xo touchin..onli fik n i understand it..hehe..even de most expensive gift in diz world cannot b compared wif wat he sincerely sae..ytd i went out 4 hari raya wif fik..we went 2 tpayoh ferst..went 2 his aunt house 4 awhile den we proceed 2 eunos..de mrt was nt veri packed but i dunno y i almost fall but luckili fik avoid mi frm fallin..hehe..


wen we reached eunos, we walked 2 de nxt house..de owner was nt ard xo we went 2 another house nearby..fik knocked de door and nobody opened it..but it seems like dere iz sum1 inside..suddenly dere's a ger came out frm de lift n looked at uz..i asked fik hu iz tat..he said she's his cousin..tat ger went in n she tok 2 sum1 inside..den shut de door..wat de fuck..we came xo far 2 visit n dey were rude 2 do tat..fuckin bitch..if it wasnt 4 fik, i wil kick ur fuckin ass..bloody bitch..


aft tat we went 4 a smoke b4 takin de buz 2 buena vista..fik luv 2 hug mi in de buz or mrt..hehe..i luv his hugs..haiz wish i could hug him nw..hehe..we went 2 his aunt house..de 2 kids were playful n cute..1 boi n 1 ger..hehe..i chatted wif his aunt while he revenged de kids 4 bullyin him..he fooled ard wif dem like a kid..hehe..it was fun seein dem play wif each other..fik was smilin n lufin al de time..he told mi dat he didnt feel diz hapi b4 knowin mi..n wen i saw him play wif de kids, i was hapi 2 c him hapi..


de laz place was woodlands..his bro house..i was quite nervous actuali..de journey 2 woodlands was far n fik slept in de buz..he sleep on ma shoulder n i rest ma head on his head..hehe..i want 2 sleep but de buz nv stop rockin..haiz..stupid driver..fik was tired xo he cn sleep..hmph..haha..i kept lookin at him sleep..he was cute wen he sleep..hehe..fik hates 2 c guyz starin at mi..4 wat reason he dun care but he juz hate ani1 stare at mi..he nv pick a fight wif 2 guys at buena vista 4 starin at mi n ma red highlighted hair..luckili nth happen..


wen we reached hiz bro house, he went up alone while i wait at de void deck..i dun dare 2 face hiz bro yet..haiz..aft a few mins, he came down n told mi tat hiz bro iz nt ard but hoz car was at de carpark..hmm confused..den he wanted 2 go 2 bukit batok but i dun wan 2 b returnin home late..xo he decided 2 sent mi home..in de mrt, i challenged him 2 press ma hand as hard as how much he luv mi..he pressed ma hand extremeli hard n it was fuckin pain sia..luckili ma hand did nt fracture..haiz..


b4 sendin mi home, we ate at j8 first..fik suddenly feel tat hiz legz was cramp n pain..i didnt noe wat 2 do xo i decided 2 massage hiz leg..but de pain gt worse..i panic n fik smiled..he sae de pain was lesser alr..haiz..he alwaes haf surprises 4 mi..haiyo..den i challenged him agen but diz tme he muz hug mi as hard as how strong hiz luv 4 mi..it was fuckin tight n i screamed a little..he luf at mi n sae serve mi rite..argh!..den he walked mi 2 de lift..b4 lettin mi go in de lift, he kissed a lot of time at ma face..hehe..it was swit of him..den we seperate agen..haiz..i fuckin hate diz part..anw i'll stop here bb


P.S: ma post gettin longer n longer since i noe fik..hmm y arh?haha

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Saturday, October 28, 2006
12:55 AM

halo guyz..i wan 2 warn u first tat my post todae wil b a long one..haha..on thurs, laz dae of sch, sha, za n mi went 2 tpayoh survey..i wan 2 survey bout contact lens n hp cover xo dey accompanied mi..we went 2 look 4 de contact lens first..we found out tat de purple lens without ani degree cost $20..but 4 mi it cost $30 as i am a first time user..it was fuckin hard 2 insert de stupid lens sia..but wen i wan 2 take it out, fuckin easi..haha..


den we walked de whole tpayoh central n find ma hp cover..we find nth coz ma hp model iz stil lastest..haiz..aft de al tat we went to take buz56 back 2 bshan but za wil stop at de buz stop nearby our sch..while waitin 4 de buz, za kept sayin i anti her guy..as in i disapproved her guy..den sha intterupt her n sae i anti her x too..i was fuckin hurt wen dey sae tat..i didnt disapproved their guyz but juz tat i warned about dem..


4 sha's x, he's a horny guy hu wan 2 trap gers 2 play wif..sha didnt reali luv him becoz she stil cant 4get bout her admirer..wen i found tat her x iz a bastard, i didnt tel her..wen i was tokin on de fon wif him, he said hes horny n he nid a ger 2 play wif..i gt diz idea..i gave him a deal..if i let him touch mi or aniting he wan xcept fuck, he muz leave sha alone n nv bother her agen..i dun wan sha 2 b trap by him xo i sacrified myself..eventhough diz iz dirty but i dun wan ma best fren hu iz stil clean 2 b ruined like mi..xo i wen 2 his house n let him do wateva he wan wif mi..i feel disgusted but i control it..


4 za's guy, i juz feel hes a ego guy tat like 2 show off wat he haf..but i dun noe whether itz true or nt la..za dun haf a hp xo i haf 2 reply n tok 2 him on de fon..tat was b4 fik came ard..i haf 2 pretend 2 b za xo he can communicate wif her..i did diz until dey finally stead..i continued diz too n za asked mi 2 follow her 2 mit him..sha n i went wif her..haiz waste ma time..but i did diz becoz she ma best fren xo i am worried bout her..until fik came into ma life, i decided 2 stop doin tat 4 awhile..i waste ma pp8 n time 4 her..but i dun xpect anitin in return frm both of dem..wat i wan iz juz tat we wil stick 2gether as besties 4eva


BUT BOTH OF DEM TINK I ANTI THEIR FUCKIN GUYZ OR JEALOUS TAT DEY HAF A BF N I DUN HAF 1 AT TAT TIME??! IF I AM WAT DEY TINK, WIL I HELP DEM? WIL I SACRIFIED MA FUCKIN MONEY, TIME N MA BODI JUZ 4 DEM? WIL I DO AL DIZ?..I WOULD HAF JUZ DUN BOTHER BOUT DEM RITE..BUT I DIDNT!!!!! I CARED N WORRIED BOUT DEM XO MUCH N DEY DUN APPRECIATE IT..EVEN IF U DUN WAN 2 APPRECIATE WAT I DID 4 U, CN U STOP SAYIN I ANTI UR FUCKIN GUYZ??..


i was too generous n soft hearted..frm nw onwards, i wil kip my mouth fuckin shut n dun bother bout ur personal idiot relationship..wen im like diz, dun tink dat im ego ok!..sumtimes bein ego do haf advantages..wen im gd 2 u, u take advantage of it pluz hurt mi badli..wen u realised tat u shld nt haf said tat, u ask mi 4 4giveness..i said im ok..but do u seriouzli tink tat im ok?..i might look like im ok but inside mi iz stil hurt..i didnt xpect i would b hurt by ma own besties tat i luv most n trusted most..especialli sha..haiz..life iz gettin harder n harder..sumtimes de person u luv de most, wil hurt u de most..de hurt in mi iz healed bit by bit by fik each dae..if he iz nt ard now, i might haf done sumthin stupid..i'll stop here tcbb

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Sunday, October 22, 2006
10:08 PM

hey guyz! i bought my baju kurong at laz..haha..black colour..my fav..my shoe iz black too..haha..my accesoriez al black n white..haha..zebra style diz yr..lol..i oso bought purple dye 4 highlight my hair..haha..im puttin in 2dae coz my mom want it 2 b 2dae..haiz..stil dunno how im suppose 2 go sch wif my hair like tat..i stil nid 2 take my report book..haiz..


aniwae my frenz kept a secret frm mi..dey wan mi 2 brin $10 4 2n3 claz bbq..i said okae but wen i asked dem wen iz de party, dey told mi 2 ask huiyi..xo im confused, y cant u juz tel mi wen iz it..no big deal wat..den ytd i asked huiyi wen iz de bbq, she said on my bdae..haha wat de fuck..i asked her y dey dun tel mi bout diz..she sae sharil n de otherz planned nt 2 tel mi..haha..idiot bro..btw sharil iz my god bro la..haha..alwaes surprisin mi..n ytd iz his bdae, HAPI BDAE SHARIL..haha..


cant wait 4 my bdae coz my mom finali want 2 buy mi a mp3 player..haha..im not excited bout hari raya instead im excited bout my bdae n claz bbq..haiz but i cannot celebrate hari raye or my bdae wif fik..haiz..itz ok fik..i wil wait 4 dat dae ok..hmm..


didnt go 2 sch todae coz im lazi..haha..but frankly i nid 2 help my parentz clean de house everiting la..sha oso didnt go 2 sch..al bz la..onli za went 2 sch..i tink xo..haha..found out frm one of my classmatez dat im in de retaining list 4 3n..haiz..i knew im goin 2 retain..dunno wat 2 sae la..my teacher want 2 mit my parentz..haiz up 2 de sch la..wan mi 2 b retain den go ahead..i cannot change aniting..n mayb bein retain can help mi..xo im nt disappointed la but juz waitin wat wil happen 2 mi nxt..haiz..i noe fik wil b angry wif mi..but i wil nt argue wif him la..haiz..


life suckz 4 mi in mani waes..life iz fun or gd 4 mi wen i do sumtin wrg..datz my life la..i noe no 1 want 2 b in a life like mi..i try my bez nt 2 let ani1 b involved in wat i do but sumtimez i failed..i juz wan 2 b alone 4 sumtime..haiz..u nv noe i might cut my wrist agen 2 help mi feel beta..i'll stop here tc bb

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Saturday, October 21, 2006
8:20 AM

hey guyz..todae iz a special dae 4 mi..onli fik, sha n i noe y iz 2dae special..im sowi i cannot tel u guyz becoz im nt ready yet..hehe..anw hapi deepavali haha..muz go n celebrate hehe..


didnt went out todae..juz stay at home..actuali i agreed 2 mit 1 guy frm chat but i cancelled it..juz dun feel like goin..he ask mi out 2 geylang n help mi choose 1 baju kurong 4 mi..coz til nw i haven buy nt even 1 baju kurong..haiz..luckily he iz nt angry wif mi..


i decided 2 highlight my hair purple..but may include a little bleach..mayb onli..haha cant wait..but de fuckin prob iz sch iz stil on aft de ferst dae of hari raya..xo i cannot highlight my hair yet..on thurz den i highlight..haha..nvm la..muz b mature 2 tink wat iz rite..cannot go against sch rulez..nt worth it..haha woah..mature rite..like real..haha..nth much happen 2dae except tat sumtin tat i cannot tel u guyz yet haha..go n figure out or guez la bout de secret..haha..i'll stop here tc bb

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Thursday, October 19, 2006
11:38 PM

ola guyz..bout de emo guy..we quarrelled n tatz it..over between uz..hmm..i made 2 new frenz..fik n wan..haha..fik iz nw in malaysia xo we juz tok on de fon bout life..his famili background iz quite similar 2 mine..haiz..4 uz life suckz n people make uz feel tat we dont exist at all..

erm..bout wan..i noe him frm chat..n he's raimi fren..raimi iz my x scandal..wakakaka..dey lost cntct since sec sch coz wan moved to a new home in bshan..haha his house iz nt far frm mine xo itz fuckin easi 4 uz 2 meet..hehe..ytd i meet him..we went 2 bshan library den break fast in de cinema..haha..went 2 watch death note..interestin n funi sia..haha..but de story quite long la..almost 3hrs..fuck sia..my mom cal my hp den i ans her cal in de cinema..she tout i went out wif sha xo she wanna tok 2 sha..i freak out sia..xo i msg sha n ask her 2 cal mi xo i cn conference their calls..luckili sha called..woah she saved my life..den my mom told mi 2 go home n brin sha along..wat de fuck..i asked sha 2 meet mi n go home wif mi..

sha agreed..she saved my life agen..i was fuckin scared sia..if sha was nt ard, im dead..fuckin shit dead..my mom saw sha wif mi, xo she didnt sae anitin n believed mi..wan was nt angry bout mi leavin him at de cinema..he understands mi n was worried bout mi..but nth went wrg..haha..i dun wan 2 do dat agen sia..itz more scary dan de movie..haha..thkz a lot sha..i wil rmb diz..luv u..

until todae, i haven bought ani baju kurong 4 hari raya..haiz..m parentz r 2 bz n tired bout work..n we didnt prepare anitin 4 hari raya diz yr..dunno wat 2 sae la..juz speechless bout diz..im oso nt ready n lazi 2 celebrate..itz nth special 2 mi..haiz wateva la..i'll stop here bb

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Friday, October 13, 2006
6:55 PM

HeLo0 guyz..rmb tat em0 guy?..he asked mi out last wed n todae..but he didnt turn up..haha..fuck sia..but luckily im nt tat stupid 2 go 2 de place where he wan 2 mit mi..haha..if i go n wait 4 him like 1 stupid idiot, i wil kil him wen i found out he cannot come..haiz..wat an asshole..haha..


aniwae deres another ting tats more impt dan tat..my fren za or if u noe her by her nickname kid, bring mi into her stupid game..diz iz wat i mean..she noe diz guy frm her national camp n both of dem like each other..but de guy had a ger alr..xo dey juz xchange num..n guez wat..tat bitch gif him my num becoz she doesnt haf a hp..haiz..she asked mi 2 help her reply his msgs n even talk 2 him on de phone..wat de fuck..if she nt my fuckin bez fren, i wont gif a shit 2 help her..haha..


4 sum time dey lost cntct..but nt long he msg mi n ask how life blablabla..n he told mi tat he broke up wif his ger..haha..n he reali tout tat i was za..i told za tat he iz nw single, she was fuckin hapi sia..kanina..xo hapi 4 wat..she told mi 2 chat wif him..xo i did la..he xo nerdy type la..onli speakz eng..he tink diz iz london ar..haha..last fews daes, he confess tat he like za..n za was shocked..haha..za ask mi 2 tel him tat she oso like him..he was shocked to0..wat de fuck..shocked2 4 wat..haha..but he dun wan 2 ask 4 stead until za bdae arrived wich iz on 2o oct..comin so0n..but dey met each other ytd..sha n i went along oso becoz za want uz 2 go..haish..diz ger reali a pain in de ass la..


went 2 vivo city den went 2 break fast at bshan j8..walao eh..diz guy iz nerdy but cute lookin la..haha;-)..he behave like 1 xo gd gentlemen..eee! xo disgustin..i hate guyz pretend 2 act cool or act smart in frnt of gerzz..haha..juz b wat u r la..tat wil make de ger interested in u more dan wen u act cool..haha stupid shit..he oso ego..juz sae hi den dun talk 2 mi n sha animore..asshole..if u dun like uz juz tel uz la..itz nt like we wanna c u or wat..iz becoz of za tats y we came along..fuck u la..bloody nerd..haha..


za told mi 2 pretend tat i nv talk 2 him b4 n dun tel him tat i was de 1 tat chat wif him on de phone n i was de 1 tat replied his stupid msgs..haiz..y cant she tel de truth xo i wont haf 2 carry on diz stupid game..if she dun tel him now n if he ask 4 stead on her bdae, it wil b harder 4 her 2 tel him..secretz cannot b kept 4 long la..sooner or lata..he wil noe..n if itz too late 2 convince him, both of dem wil b hurt n pluz their relationship might b affected to0..haiz..za reali dunno wat iz rite wat iz wrg..shes stil de childish ger..haiz..aft sha n mi gone thru a lot in our life diz yr..we can at least tink maturely wat shld b corrected..get wat i mean?..


oh ya i 4got, a lot of guyz called mi msg mi everitin la..al want 2 mit mi, stead wif mi n 1 of dem iz my x scandal..he wan 2 patch wif mi..guez wat i sae 2 dem..NO! FUCK OFF!..haha..al of dem were shocked n disappointed..hehe..i like de reaction wen i reject dem..serve dem rite..fuckin bastards..lol..i'll stop here tc bb

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Tuesday, October 10, 2006
8:01 PM



hey guyz..todae saw dis guy iz tat ^ pic..haha he's my new fren n he eva sound mi 4 stead but i didnt accept coz we dun reali noe each other n nv mit b4..haha..juz nw went out 4 awhile..haiz dunno y cn see him haha..we juz saw hi la den i walked awae..i noe he wanted 2 sae sumthin but i juz walked awae..

he look damn cute n hot..haha..most importantli he emo!..woah..haha but 4get it..nt eager 2 haf a guy nw..haha..but im confused bout 1 ting..i went out n accidentli saw him in de mornin ard 7 pluz..wat iz he doin xo earli in de mornin..haha muz be he go n sleep wif ani bitch at bshan den wen i saw him, he muz b on his wae home..haha..jk la..crazi mie..btw i decide 2 change my nick babyrikacute t0 denovobaby..hehe de novo in latin means a new..xo a new baby..wakakaka..stupid rite..anw i'll stop here tc bb..

ma heart was kidnapped by u

6:59 AM

hey guyz..sowi 4 de veri late update..wel, my mom kept my broadband modem 4 de past few daez xo i cannot log into de net..my bro make ma mom angry n she release her anger by punishin mi like alwaes..haiz..wat 2 do, juz tolerate la..i juz cry everi time i secretly go 2 bed..she tinks i sleep but i was juz cryin 2 release my anger..haiz..

but actuali, without de net, it sort of help mi la..as in, i cannot cntct guyz frm de net..becoz nw, i am tryin 2 keep myself single..haha..n nw it had been 2wks tat im single n tat break my record..haha..i alwaes haf a new bf aft 1 or 2 daes aft a breakup xo dis iz my longest record 4 dis yr la..hehe..

2 my gerls, actuali without guyz, u wil feel free, relax n most importantly nt hurt..hehe..i dun even haf 2 on my hp nw becoz i dun bother bout de guyz tat keep chasin 4 mi..i onli on my hp wen i go out xo my parentz cn cntct mi..hehe..i dun haf 2 wori bout ani guy wen im outside or aniwhere..i juz relax n haf fun wif my frenz n i dun haf ani guyz in my mind nw..woah..im feelin xo different dan laz time wen i haf a bf..haha..n diz result oso made my communication wif my parentz more lifely n close..haha..

mi nw juz feelin single, nt interested in guyz n im nt available or in 'service'..haha..it has been quite long, bout 9 mthz tat i dun feel dis wae..well, i tink single iz gd oso..haha if u wanna noe wen i wil find a guy..haha i dunno..shld b wen i am more mature dan nw n veri sure tat my future guy cn haf a seriuz n long relationship wif mie..haha xo those fuckin guyz hu wanna noe mi or stil wanna chase aft mi..4get de fuckin shit ok..if u wan anitin frm mi, i wont gif u a fuckin shit to0..juz to0 bad la tat im nt de old stupid mi..i'll stop here tc bb

ma heart was kidnapped by u