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If I were a boy, Even just for a day
 Id roll out of bed in the morning
 And throw on what I wanted and go
 Standing outside my house

Trying to apologize
 You’re so ugly when you cry
 Please, just cut it out
 [Chorus]
 Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
 But you put on quite a show
 You really had me going

But now it’s time to go
 Curtain’s finally closing

That was quite a show
 Very entertaining
 But it’s over now

Go on and take a bow
 Grab your clothes and get gone
 You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
 Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one
 This just looks like the re-run
 Please, what else is on
 (Chorus)
 And the award for, the best lie goes to you
 For making me believe that you could be
 Faithful to me
 Let's hear your speech ohh
 How about a round of applause
 Standing ovation


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30 oct 1991.
18
ite simei
single bitch

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Friday, November 03, 2006
6:57 AM

hi guyz..ma post might b borin becoz im cryin rite nw..i juz feel like cryin..i dun mind if u dun wan 2 read ma post..juz do wateva u wan la..


on 31oct..i went 2 sch wif ma parentz 4 de promotion exercise..i was promoted..ma parentz were disappointed bout ma results..im fucked up wif their nags n advices..haiz..aft tat i haf bio remedial but i didnt go 4 tat..i told ma mom i go 4 de remedial but i wen sumwhere else wif sha instead..we wen 2 fik's workplace at millenia walk..he was late 4 work xo he had 2 end his work at 5 instead of at 3..


while waitin 4 him, we decided 2 walk ard at marina square..we saw de cinema xo we decided 2 watch a movie 2 kil time..we watched sinkin of japan..itz nt reali touchin but veri excitin..de effectz was amazin..nice movie la..aft de movie, we went back 2 fik's workplace..he juz finished his work..he want 2 send mi back 2 bshan..i told him 2 go home straight but he was stubborn n insist 2 send mi home..we took de buz num 56 back 2 bshan interchange..it was a fuckin long journey but i liked it..coz i like 2 spend time wif him on de buz..it was swit..


wen we reached bshan, we went 2 de popular..i wanted 2 buy sum pratice books..fik luf at mi..argh..he wont let ma hand go..it was like he scare i wil b lost or wat..i forced maself 2 let ma hand go..haha..n i won..he lost 2 mi agen..hehe..sha luf at uz wen we fooled ard..she onli noe how 2 luf..haha..


we loitered at 1 study corner..i joked ard wif him..he kept losin 2 mi..haha..he surrender al de time juz becoz he dun wan mi 2 b mad at him..poor ting..aft a while, sha went home..left both of uz alone..we spend de swittest moment 2gether n we forgot bout de time..it was 9pm alr..n ma parentz r lookin 4 mi..haiz..fik haf probs goin home..im worried bout him n he was worried bout mi..b4 we left tat place, za bf msg mi..he asked mi bout de outin..fik saw dat msg..he face changed n i noe wat iz in his mind..


we seperated n i wen back home feelin scared..ma parentz wan mi 2 spill out de truth..but i lied 2 dem agen..ma mom believed mi but ma fuckin dad knew sumtin was nt rite n he want 2 find out de truth..fuckin asshole..ma mom didnt allow mi 2 used ma hp n com tat nite..fik called mi a lot of time..he even ask his x 2 msg mi 2 ans his cal..but i couldnt ans tat time..haiz..de nxt dae ma mom let mi use ma hp n com..she alwaes 4givin mi..n yet i betray her..im such an idiot n useless..haiz..


since tat dae i tried 2 xplain 2 fik bout de msg he saw..he tout i play two timer..i tel him bout za bf..he understand n 4gif mi..he promiz 2 cal mi at 2am wen ma parentz r nt ard..i waited 4 hiz cal..but he didnt cal..i guez he fal asleep..de nxt dae..i waited 4 him 2 cal..i couldnt stand it..i was afraid tat he dun understand..xo at 9pluz..i started cryin n i didnt eat properly de whole dae..i took a knife n cut ma wrist n press de knife against ma palm..i promiz him b4 tat i wouldnt 2 diz stupid ting..but i couldnt control maself..wen i wan 2 cut ma wrist de 2nd time, he called ma hp..i ans his cal n he heard mi cryin..he dislike hearin or seein mi cry but i juz..haiz..i dunno how 2 put diz..he kept sayin he forgiven mi n he apologised bout nt callin mi..i 4gif him n i told him tat i hurt maself..he suddenly kept quiet n his mum told him 2 put down de fon becoz sum guest came..he said he cal mi back..


he msg mi n told mi tat he 4gif mi n dun wan mi 2 hurt maself agen..i promiz tat i wont do tat agen..he told mi tat he scolded hiz guests 4 no reason n he felt like runnin frm home..i beg him nt 2 do tat..he juz said he wil find a wae 2 solve al his probs n try 2 cntct mi..den he said gdbye..


2dae i wait 4 him 2 cal as usual..i went online at noon n he was online 4 awhile..we chat 4 awhile n dan he sign off..i waited 4 him 2 cal until i decided 2 cal his house at malaysia..his mom sounded sad n told mi tat he went out..haiz..juz nw at 10pm, i called his house agen..his mom picked up de fon n said fik went out agen n she asked 4 ma name..i told her n thank her..haiz..i juz cannot stop cryin..im extremely worried bout him..god, plz help mi protect him frm ani danger..haiz i'll stop here..tc bb

ma heart was kidnapped by u