☜☞ Hold on to me and never let me go ☜☞
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If I were a boy, Even just for a day
 Id roll out of bed in the morning
 And throw on what I wanted and go
 Standing outside my house

Trying to apologize
 You’re so ugly when you cry
 Please, just cut it out
 [Chorus]
 Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
 But you put on quite a show
 You really had me going

But now it’s time to go
 Curtain’s finally closing

That was quite a show
 Very entertaining
 But it’s over now

Go on and take a bow
 Grab your clothes and get gone
 You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
 Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one
 This just looks like the re-run
 Please, what else is on
 (Chorus)
 And the award for, the best lie goes to you
 For making me believe that you could be
 Faithful to me
 Let's hear your speech ohh
 How about a round of applause
 Standing ovation


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30 oct 1991.
18
ite simei
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Friday, March 30, 2007
6:17 AM

wuHu..sayang book out 2nite..cant wait 2 tok 2 hym..hes now on hiz wae home
n gud news..ma mom let mi go out tml!!! yessa! can spend tyme wif him wuHu..
tml goin 2 watch stomp de yard or other movies la..at the cathay..weEE..
ferst time watch movie wif him..cannot wait sia..
i goin out at 12 den mit him at bshan mrt..gonna gif him a big hug..hahax
den ard 3 aft de show..go mit ma frenz at bugiz..yiPPee..!
so hapi sia..! thkz mumi 4 lettin mi out..
gonna buy present 4 mumi..shld b at bugiz la..town got nth 2 buy 4 ma mom..

hmm but bad news iz de sistahood..mi, sha n za..nt clickin wif each other wel alr
juz nw got conflict wif za n her bf..den sha was quite involved in de arguement too
za kept askin mi 4 4giveness but i juz cannot 4give her la..
i helped, sacrificied, advised, accompanied her thru her rlationship wif tat black BUSTARD!
but she seems to take advantage of mie or dun appreciated wat i haf done 4 her al diz while
to mie, i take frenz imptli..even if i dun like sumthin bout dem but i stil help dem if dey nid help
n for sha n za, i take dem as ma sistas..nt juz besties..i luv dem more tat ma lil bro..
but wat i get?.. i dun wan anitin in return 4 de tings i helped u but cn u juz appreciate wat i've done 4 u since de laz 4 3 fuckin yrs..!
mayb im too generous huh?..too soft hearted rite? truz ppl easili rite?..

nw i wil change ma character 2wards both of u too..hands off ur rlationship matters..i wil onli help u guyz about studies frm now
ma mom told mi 2 help frenz in their studies onli but i didnt listen 2 her
n i regretted! i'll make sure both of u regret ma new attitude..
but 2wards both of dem onli la..ma other frenz n ma sayang..i wil nt do tat
teach dem a lesson..i hate 2 b taken 4 grated..

haiz dun tok bout diz la..spoil ma hapi mood wif ma sayang onli..hehex..peace out!!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Tuesday, March 27, 2007
7:53 AM

hmm..sayang pp8 low den i go n top up 4 him ytd
b4 goin 2 de stadium..1-3.15 go 4 eng LSP..3.15-4.15 go 4 mathz wif mr tham
i noe tat mum wil nt believe tat i went 4 extra lessons..
so i decided 2 ask ma teachers 2 write a note 4 mum..
den reached stadium bout 4.55 n was in time 2 watch de laz event
hahax..de b division 4x100..nice 1 siao..
aft sport heats 2 sha, seri n i go long john..onli seri eat..hehex
den de cashier gay..with red hair sumore..damn! i miz ma red hair..
nvm i wil wait til end of n level, ma hair wil make ppl envy of mie..hahaz
den aft seri eat, we walked round tpayoh central 2 find de singtel $10 top up..
walao..de card limited stock onli low..nt mani shop haf..
den i dun haf enuf money 2 buy de $20 1..hehex
we walked n asked al de hp shops hahax

finalli we found 1 tat has de card la..but he sel at $12 nt $10..
i was like..wateva la..i paid him den he gif mi de card n we walked out pathetically
hahax..he gave 2 cards sia! lucki mie stupid him..wakakaka
but i top up 4 sayang $1o onli lor..de other 1 kip ferst..in case la..hehex

todae..mum n dad come home b4 i head 4 sch..so i dun nid 2 send ma lil bro..
wen i was preparin 2 go out of ma house..mum asked 4 ma teachers notes bout ytd xtra lessons
i gave her den she cannot read..hahax..she ask mi 2 read 4 her den she ask stupid ques..
i felt irritated so i looked quite moody..
wen i was lookin de door, mum sae cn u dun show ur stupid moody face at mie
walao! cn u gif mi sum peace?! itz in de mornin n u alr nag at mie..haiz
wats wrg wif her sia?..

haiz but 4get it la..if she wan 2 b like tat, den up 2 her..i wil tolerate wif her nonsense until de dae i nid 2 voice out everitin.. de dae tat i proved tat i changed..
but now de 1 ferst ting tat i cn prove 2 her iz by improvin in ma mid yr
ma CA1 like shit..2 out of 6 subs passed..i wil die wif de results 4 ma n level
i dun aim 4 high marks but at least i wan ma results improved..
im workin hard 2wards it now..n starboi watchin mi frm de sky..haha lame
sayang sae he wan 2 treat mie 2 a movie diz sat n top up ma pp8 as wel
i dun feel like askin him 2 top up 4 mie coz i was alwaes de 1 toppin up 4 dem
but nvm la..up 2 him..but he dun wan 2 watch movie at town..haiz
den i tink of askin him 2 go vivo or bugis watch..but town alwaes de bez la!

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Saturday, March 24, 2007
6:54 AM

haiz..
y muz diz happen 2 mie? y now?
argh!!
ma mom dun understand tat im tryin 2 change 4 gud
i asked ma teachers 4 personal tuition 4 de ferst tyme..n de whole wk i wil b comin home late
becoz of de tuition..
but ma mom tinks i wanna go somewher else..i tried 2 convinced her but i failed..
she found frm sum1 tat i went wif taufik laz wk.. she was scared i wil get pregnant..
she compared mie wif her female worker hu iz pregnant now..
4 de paz 1 wk..i went 4 nite joggin..n she was sleepin wen i went 2 jog..
i dun wan 2 go durin de dae coz paiseh la..ppl wil look at mie like idiots..
she dun allow mie 2 go nite jog agen..i was like! wats wrg sia?!

laz time, i dun help her wif housewk coz lazi
but since de beginning of march..she seems veri sick
i sent her 2 de doc dan find out she got breathin difficulties
so i decided 2 help her wif al de housewk so she cn rez aft her nite work..
until now i stil do it lor..
but she tink i do diz so i cn play de com..like i do housewk 4 her den she muz let mi play de com
hu de hel wil tink like tat la?! i help her not becoz of de stupid com..
y muz she tink negativeli..?
i noe ma character n attitude was like shit laz time
but now im nt!!
y cn she understand mie like fadli n ma frenz do?..
i tout she would b de 1 tat wil understand mie de most..i was wrg..veri wrg

but no matter wat de fuck she wana tink of mie..
i wil nt gif up..i wil continue wif ma aims n no 1 cn stop mie
she cn blocked ma wae but she cannot stop mie..i wil find another wae..dun test mi mom!
haiz feelin so down now..

ytd while tokin 2 fadli bout diz..he was tryin 2 calm mi down..told b 2 b patience..
diz iz juz de beginning n itz a test 2 mi..so i nid 2 b stronger..
but den he pp8 finished..how he gonna cntct mie sia..
shld i top up 4 him or wait til nxt sat wen he book out of camp?..
seri advised mi 2 top up 4 him but he muz top up 4 mie wen ma pp8 is low to0..
she told mie 2 tel him tat im nt bein selfish but i dun reali haf money n im skoolin
n i do it becoz i luv him..so i guez i wil top up 4 him diz mon..but thru POSB lor..hmm

i tout tings wil improve but deres alwaes sumthin tryin 2 make it worst..im nt gonna gif up animore..
i wil carri on..juz do wat i haf 2 do..wish mie luck guyz..i reali nid ur support..x(

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Thursday, March 22, 2007
6:28 AM

7 daes.. 1 week..
since he was gone..
but he cntct mie everi dae.. juz 4 a few mins
but at least he make an effort 2 cntct mie..i dun mind de short time..
miz him lyke hell.. waitin 4 nxt sat.. 31 march..
he book out of camp in de mornin..
hope 2 mit him at noon.. den go watch movie..
if possible, seri n her bf joinin uz..
i juz count de daes passed by..
it felt lyke time iz passin so slow..veri veri slowli..haiz

gud news..i lost sum weight 4 de paz 1 wk..
i've been joggin..tryin 2 lose weight n build a beta stamina 4 NAFA..
wanna look beta so sayang wil b more happie..
i noe he dun force mi 2 slim down but itz ma decision..
im sick wif diz lifestyle..wana change so badli!
if i succeed, dere r a lot of tings i cn do beta n life wil b much much fun..wish mi luck xP

itz a damn cold nite, without u by ma side..
but i dun gif up, becoz u r hu i lup..
miz u sayang..mit u soon olrite..take cr..dun get influenced by de perverts in ur camp ok hehex

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Thursday, March 15, 2007
4:55 PM







todae 16th march..he went 4 hiz ns diz mornin..he cal mie up b4 he left..tat was de laz time i hear hiz voice..ytd nite, we were playin com while talkin 2 each other on de fon..i was alone at home coz de rest went 2 ma famili company..1 hr b4 we put down de fon, he start talkin bout hiz ns stuff..i was blank tat time..i dun wan him 2 go..i was juz feelin veri down n upset becoz he wil leave mie veri so0n..i start 2 cry softli..den we were quiet 4 sumtime..i tink he heard i cry..he sae dear r u cryin?..i juz kip quiet n cry..he knew he shld juz let mi cry everitin out so i wil feel beta..but i juz cannot stop cryin..aft sumtime, he decide 2 talk..he cannot bear hearin mie cry..he said dun tink too hard ok sayang..if u miz mie juz c de keychain..or durin de nite juz look at de sky n try 2 find 2 stars stick 2gether..imagine 1 is mie n 1 is u..i was touched n i calm maself down slowli..



diz iz de keychain i made..actuali diz iz onli half of it..he got 1 wif ma name..i gave him becoz i wan him 2 haf sumthin tat he can rmb mie..he bring it along 2 hiz camp..haiz..i juz haf 2 wait 4 him..while waitin 4 him, i wil werk 2wards ma aims..diz wil improve ma life n i changed into a beta person..i promised fadli..
now im loneli without him but i cn bear wif it..i stil haf ma frenz n ma mom hu cn help mie out wif ma life..i nid 2 b more confident in maself n b more hardworkin..he wake mie up frm ma mistakes n now i learnt ma lesson 4 wastin ma time 4 useless tings..wif hiz strong luv, i wan b a beta gerl 4 him..so he cn b proud of mie..de period of time we r seperated, he wil tone up hiz bodi, b a much mature guy n more muscular..while im here, i wil werk out wif ma apperance, study hard 4 n level n o level n lastli b more discipline 2 ma parents..i dun wan 2 gif empty promises..action speaks louder dan words..diz iz ma laz chance 2 change maself..i hate 2 let ma luv ones down..i've done too mani probs alr..now ma past probs r settled n i wil open a fresh page 4 ma life..i love u 4eva fadli..miz u xo badli..gud luck 4 ur ns..dun noti2 k..tinkin of u alwaes..countin de daes..take gud care of urself..b strong ok sayang..MUACKZ..
P.S: i hope i laz long wif him sia..hes de bez among al..thk god i haf him in ma life..wuHu...!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Monday, March 12, 2007
10:35 PM




wuhu..ytd play badminton wif fadli n sha..great workout sia..now whole bodi cramp..hehex..hes xo hensem even if hiz slacky clothes he wore ytd..den he perspire a lot ytd..woah he was so hot la..i cannot tahan sia..den he kiss mie while we play badminton..haha so swit..erm..sha felt a bit disgusted la..wakakaka




we stop n take a break a few times..hehex..suddenli i juz feel like itz time 2 tel him diz bad news..wich i did..he was quite shocked but he stil wanna help mie along wif diz prob eventhough he gt nth 2 do wif it at al la..he was quite stress up but aft awhile he was fine..he sae he wil get de money i nid or anitin else so we cn solve diz prob as soon as possible..so it wil nt b too late..i cried a little..he comfort mie n he sae dun b scared..he wil alwaes b by ma side eventhough hes goin 2 ns diz fri..he wil nt let mie go thru diz prob alone..




i juz nid 2 b strong n careful now..b wiser in future..damn! i luv him xo much..i felt great tat i choose him n not tat ego taufik..until now taufik stil disturb mie..askin hiz cousin 2 scold mie so i wil patch back wif him n ask 4 4giveness..go n die la..shit him sia..i wil nt patch wif him or stead wif ani1 else..i found ma true luv alr..one n onli..im happie wif ma stead now eventhough i haf 2 face a lot of probs..i wil nt let it affect ma rlationship..muax!! luv fadli xo much..no more taufik ok..! juz fadli! ma starboi! muax!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Saturday, March 10, 2007
3:13 PM











eyo guyz..i broke wif taufiK..haiz..he asked 4 it nt mie..aft i stead wif him, ma long lost fren cntct mie back..fadli was nice, swit, carin..but he juz broke up wif hiz 3rd x..so i comfort him a lot..aft sumtime talkin 2 each other..he started 2 like mie..but he knows im attached..i oso like him..hiz character seem 2 b beta dan taufiK..he's nt ego n selfish like fiK..n he's more mature la..beta looking to0..hehex..

on 5 march, fadli cal mie n we chatted on de fon..wen it strike at 12am, fadli propose 2 mie..he dun mind havin a two timer gerl becoz he understand mie..i accpt him eventhough i noe itz wrg..veri wrg 4 mie 2 do tat 2 fiK...

we went out 2gether on thurs, it was fun n lovin..i juz cannot stop lookin at him..wen he talk or luf, i wil juz look at hiz eyes..sumtimes he tout i was starin at him..hahax..itz kind of funi becoz i cn look into hiz eyes while i talk 2 him but nt fiK..i juz cannot eye cntct wif him..mayb becoz im too shy or sumtin..hahax


aft a few daes, fiK started 2 find out bout uz thru frenster..he suspect sumthin iz wrg..ytd he was angry wif mie..he asked mie hus tat guy n everiting n he wan mie 2 tel da truth..wich i did..i told him tat i haf 2 steads now..fiK n fadli..he told mie 2 choose 1..i sae i cannot..he quickli ask mie 4 break..i was like wtf..u r givin up on mie so soon..? u dun even noe de reason i chose 2 stead wif fadli? i try 2 ask him 2 tink bout it agen but he refuse..wif hiz ego n angry, he juz gif up..fadli n i tout fiK would b stronger dan tat n would nt gif up on sum1 he luv so much juz like tat..haiz i pick de rite guy..now itz onli about fadli n mie..i luv u xo much!








ma heart was kidnapped by u

Friday, March 02, 2007
9:06 PM


haiz..ytd i asked 4 break wif taufiQ..i voiced out everitin inside..we shld nt carri on..he was veri sad n he cried to0..ferst time so him cry..he asked mie whether i patch wif taufiK alr? i said ya..de time u left mie without ani reason, taufiK was de 1 hu care bout mie, advise mie n he was upset tat u hurt mie so much..taufiK haf a stead alr but he wan 2 take care of mie..he wanna b wif mie agen..he sacrifice by breakin hiz rlationship wif hiz current, Tiqah.. i was shocked.. i was de 1 hu asked 4 break wif taufiK laz yr..i hurt him deepli but aft so much pain i cause him, he stil wanna patch wif mie..


touched by everi single word taufiK said.. i begin 2 tink bout de memories we shared laz yr.. i miz him sia..


ytd nite..Tiqah came online wen taufiK n i wa chattin..suddenli taufiK stress up n cry..he was down..i was angry wif her..i hate 2 c taufiK gettin hurt n cry..i cannot stand it so i ask her wat de matter wif her..she sae i destroy her rlationship la..i argue back lor..itz nt i destroy la..taufiK was de 1..he was de 1 hu wan mie nt her..i didnt even ask him anitin bout patchin sia..i juz ask him hu he wil choose..fuck her la..childish!..wan 2 run awae frm home la..stupid bitch!..cibai!..


i tried so hard 2 calm down taufiK but lucki he's okiex now..den Tiqah fren or hu la..related 2 her..send mie frenster msg..sae i force taufiK 2 patch him la..walao kpo bitch..! Tiqah bitch nt enuf den de fren muz become bitch oso ar..! fuckers..i quarrell wif both of dem lor..walao..idiots..if wan 2 argue, face 2 face la..1 on 1..those busibodi nt nid 2 interfere la..diz case iz bout mie, taufiK n tiqah..beware la asshole


ytd nite, aft chattin al tat..taufiQ fren cal mie n ask mie 2 stae awae frm him..becoz taufiQ playboi n he alr haf a ger 5 mths ago..wat de hell..lucki i break wif him sia..i chose de rite taukey..hahax jk!..hopefulli we cn laz long eventhough mani probs we wil sureli haf 2 go thru 1..im prayin 2 god 2 nv seperate uz n i dun wan 2 hurt him or cause him ani problems animore..stop mie frm ani wrongdoings..mitin ma dearest aft sch on mon..he fetchin mie in frnt of sch gate..hahax those wanna c him juz go out of sch wif mie la..hehex..


PS: it might b quite confusin becoz got 2 guyz wif almost de same name..taufiQ iz de guy i stead laz mth..de one in de ferst pic tat vanessa edited 4 mie..taufiK iz ma x de 1 i stead laz oct..tat iz our pic tat vann help mie edit..thkz dear


ma heart was kidnapped by u