Wednesday, April 25, 2007
4:25 AM
syg booked in camp ytd..xo sad..cannot stop tinkin bout hym..
laz nite cry until 4am..slp awhile den woke up 4 sch
haiz..so hard 2 go thru al diz
he iz havin hiz BMT tingy now..
he onli cn book out nxt 2wks..on sat at 2pm..
or mayb worse..nxt 2mths..wen hiz BMT ends..
argh!! gettin crazy soOn..!
but at least i met hym twice aft sch durin hiz mc..
i love xo much alr..i mean ma love 4 him iz gettin stronger..
he recovered frm hiz chickenpox alr..so happie 4 him
n walao! hiz body gettin more macho alr..
onli aft 1 mth, he changed so much..
i oso wana join him..so i cn get more slim n sexier..
hahax..siao! if i join, nt even 5mins of trainin..i wil b dead!
hahax..bout 2nd mth anniversary..
low chance 2 mit him..coz he book out on sat at 2pm
im afraid i cannot go out..but hopefulli cn la..
hmm wat anniversary present shld i buy 4 him?
a watch or an nokia ngage fon?
i wan 2 buy him de fon coz he cannot brin camera fon 2 camp
so ngage fon haf no camera..he cn use it 2 cntct mie..! hehex
if i buy him de watch, he cn wear it n it wil remind him tat
i tink of him everi dae,hr,min n sec..haha emotional sia mi!
peeps! plz tel mi wat i shld buy 4 him? watch or fon? tankz!
ma heart was kidnapped by u
Saturday, April 21, 2007
3:23 AM
teddy bear torn apart..juz tired 2 tink bout it..no point..
got ma hp back..quite happie bout it..but juz got 1 conflict wif ma guy
veri complicated! i duno how 2 xplain..onli sha understand everi bit of it
de main ting iz..he suspect tat deres a guy wanna stead wif mie
becoz i put tat guy'z frenster at ma featured fren on ma profile
aft tat he ask mi whether ani guy try 2 sound mi stead or nt
i told him de truth tat tat guy haf feelings 4 mi n wan 2 stead wif mie
den he scare i wil break wif him 1 dae n stead wif tat guy
becoz he did tat 2 hiz x b4 n he dun wan hiz "destiny" 2 come back 2 him
he love mi so much..too much 4 mi 2 handle
i convinced him so mani times tat i wil nt break wif him becoz of ani other guys
but he got influenced by hiz frenz..he tel diz 2 hiz frenz n dey told him 2 break wif mie..hes so scared i wil ask 4 break
i got angry bout diz..i told him tat i wil nt ask him 4 break..y he muz listen 2 hiz frenz n nt mie..
he sae he truz mi believe mi..but y he kip tinkin tat i wan break wif him..
haish..i noe he love mie but y muz he tink like tat?
he did sae tat he pity mie becoz im stuck wif ma life so he decide 2 ask mi 4 stead..den he start lovin mie until now..
i was upset..i tout he ask mi 4 stead becoz he love mi nt pity mi
i hate SYMPATHY!..
i agree 2 stead wif u becoz i like u..den as we noe each other beta wif our relationship..i started 2 love u..
wat rubbish iz diz? wat nonsense iz he tinkin?..onli listen 2 hiz stupid n immature fren..argh!
now i noe hiz character beta aft tat conflict..i understand watz on hiz mind..
ma heart was kidnapped by u
Sunday, April 15, 2007
6:40 AM
am i tinkin too much? am i bein too emotional? or im bein too naive?
he kept askin mi wen wil ma curfew end..
but i told him mani times tat i dunno..hopefulli by nxt mth
y iz he so impatience..if u canot wait den find sum1 else la
haish
he sae wen wil i totalli changed so hiz frenz wil nt look down on him..
im tryin so hard 2 b up 2 hiz expectations..makin everi effort 2 change
im nt independence so i cant go out wif u weneva u wan
im nt pretty enuf 4 u 2 show off ur gf 2 ur frenz
n becoz of diz ur frenz sae we r nt compatible
SO Y DUN U FIND A BETA GERL DAN MI INSTEAD??
DEN UR FRENZ WIL NT INSULT U
Y U SAE U LOVE MI WEN U DUN MEAN IT
I DUN WAN U 2 STEAD WIF MI BECOZ U PITY MI
I FUCKIN HATE SYMPATHYu dun noe how hard iz 4 mi 2 go thru al diz?im strugglin 2 win ma mom trust back so it wil b easier 4 uz 2 move onn i stil nid 2 bother ur nonsense..wat u reali wan r:a hot chick as ur gfn she muz b free 2 mit u weneva u wan, n spend time wif u as long as u wann hu cn wait 4 u while u serve ur nsn gif u de sense of love..AM I RITE??i juz nid u 2 understand mi tat im tryin ma bez n stop rushin mie..itz makin it worse!u dun even noe wat i xpect ma ideal bf 2 hafn itz fuckin worse dan wat u wan 4 a gf..but i dun cr al diz..i dun go 4 apperance or ani other shit..!i juz nid a guy hu luv mi 4 hu i amim gettin tired of al diz bullshitweneva i try 2 brin maself 2 face al dizsumthin wil come ma wae n i didnt xpect itz uit might b a smal matter 4 u but itz nt 4 mieu hurt mi real deep..if tat dae comes, dun come 2 mi feelin regrettedde dae wen i gif up on u!
ma heart was kidnapped by u
Saturday, April 14, 2007
7:44 AM
todae nth much happen 2dae..
so bored..fuckin bored
juz nw nid 2 go sch 4 enrichment course onli
den go home cal him but he wan 2 slp
so i wait until fal asleep lor
hahax
y tat stupid gondu starboi muz overnite at hiz fren house agen?
everi wk he muz slp dere?.. he dun haf home 2 slp ar?
u nv noe he might slp at a gerl house nt hiz fren house rite..
hahax..do wateva he wan la..big boi alr ar
guyz al de same..sianz..
haish
al teens r out havin fun on weekends wif their frenz or lover..
but mi stucked at home..jailed..waitin 4 de sky 2 drop i guez
cannot even use de com, hp taken awae n bz wif daily "werk"..
bloody shit..try goin thru diz like mi..
i tink u cannot even survive a hr..or at most a dae..
hahax.. SUCKZ
ma heart was kidnapped by u
Friday, April 13, 2007
5:08 AM
wuHu..
finalli got 2 mit ma starboi todae aft sch
luckili he came home ytd nite..hahax
laz min plan go orchard wif ma frenz
den he wan 2 c mi so he wan 2 come along..
he's now so tanned n i tink he lost weight..
hehex..we went 2 isetan n he bought a new star tshirt n star wallet..
veri nice..
den go eat kfc at far east..tats wen de rain starts..haiyo
we wan 2 go 2 heeren so we had 2 walk quite far..
and walk in de RAIN..haiz..
cn c ma black bra..bloody shit
al of uz were veri wet..
we took neoprints at heeren 2gether
n ma starboi n i took de picture card tingy la..
most of de neoprint were juz stars..hahax..
had fun todae..felt great 2 c him..miz hym sia
muackz
but to sum1 dere, u shld noe hu u r..
im reali sowie i didnt cal u durin ur break tyme..
i asked u 2 c slp ytd nt becoz i wan 2 tok 2 ma bf or sumthin
i wan u 2 rez..n bout 2dae itz was a laz min plan
i apologise 4 nt tellin u earlier..
plz dun tink negatif or get angry bout mie
i reali nid 2 tok 2 u..muackz!
ma heart was kidnapped by u
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
7:33 AM
todae bad luck dae..
he lied to mie..haish! 4 de ferst time..x(
ma mom hurt ma feelings realli bad...:'(
y muz ma life get worse?
so stress up!
im juz stuck!
tired of ma life!
frustrated wif ma bloody famili..!
didnt xpect him 2 lie 2 mie..
stupid rika!
juz a piece of shit!
idiot gerL!
argh!!!
gona b a veri quiet person frm nw
so ppl wil nt take advantage of mie
especialli ma luv ones..
i wanna b fuckin DEAD!
fed up ar!
P.S: to ma boboi, cn u tag ma tagboard wen u read ma blog? ma tagboard oso veri dead!
ma heart was kidnapped by u
Saturday, April 07, 2007
3:45 AM
ya im happie 2 haf a nice n swit guy lyke u
im ur 1 n onli teddy bear
miz ur hugs n kisses..
haiz
no 1 understand mi..nt even maself..
im emo nw..juz feelin down
no mood!
y? y? hu am i?
leave mi alone ferst
i nid time
i dunno! i dunnO!
argh!! fuck ar!!
ma heart was kidnapped by u
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