☜☞ Hold on to me and never let me go ☜☞

If I were a boy, Even just for a day
Id roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Standing outside my house

Trying to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out
[Chorus]
Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going

But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing

That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now

Go on and take a bow
Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one
This just looks like the re-run
Please, what else is on
(Chorus)
And the award for, the best lie goes to you
For making me believe that you could be
Faithful to me
Let's hear your speech ohh
How about a round of applause
Standing ovation

♥ PROFILE

babyrika
30 oct 1991.
18
ite simei
single bitch

♥ DESIRES

♥ FRIENDS

ain
shasha
jEnNy
vaNN
opicK
yaNis
jOsepH
tAUFIK
SHA
jinx

ARCHIVES;

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~~Wednesday, May 30, 2007~~

3:41 AM

heyo..finalli i haf time to update
hmm ma mid yr..ma god..itz suckz wich i expected..
i wan ma results 2 b worse like diz becoz i noe mid yr got nth 2 do wif n level..
so ma results was 2 passed 4 failed..haha

bout fadli..aft de 2 wks he went 2 tekong
i was veri selfish to him..i went out n haf fun wif other guys..
i didnt tel him..i was havin fun wen he was sufferin so much
i cant bear 2 leave him..he nids mie n i noe tat..
im a person hu haf lack in confidence n i dun do wat i sae i wan to
i mean im juz selfish 2 ppl hu love mie..i onli tink for maself
walked de wrg path everitime..even wen i noe de bad conquences..
i stil do it juz for de sack of doin it..

u might tink im matured for ma age n seriuz minded..
but honestli im not..i might nt b childish but im a slow tinker..
low self esteem..haish..i dun kip promises..
life would b much beta if i am more smart
life wouldnt b diz bad if i juz..haish..

dun help mi animore k..de more u help de more i wil b selfish
i juz wan a proper daily routine..enuf freedom..truz frm ma mom agen
but i noe itz impossible for a person like mie..
sumtimes i tink itz a wrg choice for fadli 2 fal in love wif mie
im nt suppose 2 love sum1 or to b loved by sum1..
becoz i dunno de meanin of love..

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Friday, May 25, 2007~~

4:21 AM

I'm Attached!!!...wann 2 marry-
I hv some1 i love moz...she's all i cn hope 4...4 her n 4 me...i really truely love her...
her heart n my love 4 her cant compare against all of my 3 x-girlfriends....
i hv a gud heart 4 her...n she has a gud heart 4 me...
she iz everything 2 me 2 my live n 2 my future!! i love moi damn gurl more than anytin man!!!
i cn finally fly loike a bird...stick 2 de sky loike de stars dat shine bright like a lovely sweet blinking blowkiss!...
everytime i look in the night sky...the blackness of a sky turns 2 her image n de stars r her million kisses n the dark clouds r her temtations 2wards me....
my heart filled wif glories of her love n de darkness within me rapidly fade away...as she iz my true lover...i hv nothing 2 fear n fite my temtations 2 her rights...
but what i need now iz juz ur understanding...n if i ever hurt ur feelings during our relations..
.i do wish upon de stars dat u would 4giv me n 4get all my wrong doings 4 i will punish myself n change my standards 4 some1 like eu, i could do anything sweet...
i cherish eu all de way n till de end of tyme...i wish our love could reach even beyond the star n de sky!...
wif eu giving me confidence i hv no fear animore...but u muz stay strong 2...
u noe i love girls hu r strong, independent n trueful 2 love...
i wan eu 2 shine loike dat star! i choose eu 2 b de black dark night sky 2 guide my shining stars...i m the blue stars that send arrays 2 de deep blue oceans...
u love anithing that i love n i love anithing that eu love we share all our pain problems n hatred...we r 4 1 eternity in love..that no1 cn stop us...NO1!!!!....
I love my bie sooooo much! i wish 2 c her everytime....miz her soo much 2...bie..i wanted eu sooo badly....wish eu were always by my side...be wif me....always love eu bie....MUACKZ!!...i'll b missing eu...very much...

P.S: hope i cn b faithful n patience to him..

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Friday, May 18, 2007~~

5:40 PM

damn..hes juz a liar..
kira..i mean keith..cannot cal him kira animore
he patch back wif his x..without tellin mie
i tout he was single..n i tout of startin a rlationship wif him agen..
but no point now

once a liar is alwaes a liar..once a bastard is alwaes a bastard
at least u could tel mi u wan 2 patch wif ur x
so i wouldnt haf bother u..
ya i noe itz nice n fun 2 fool a gerl like mie..

i reali tout i could depend on u..
i wanted u to b ma guy.. n of coz nw im single..itz easier 4 us
but wen i msg u ytd, n ur gf reply..
i felt so betrayed..guys are al de same
dey might haf diff personality or diff character
but dey haf de same intention..
wich is HURT GERLS hu love them..

wats de use havin a boyfie..or a husband..
dey r juz a pain in ma ass..dependin on maself now
i dun ani help frm ani fuckin guy..
i hav ma gerlfrens tat i truz is enuf..n of coz ma mom..

to vanN, i dunno wat ur tat fren did to u til u feel so down ytd
u alwaes look down on urself as bein a bad fren
to mie, ure nt..ure smart, passionate n most impt i truz u..
itz hard to truz a fren even if u noe her 4 a few yrs or so
but sumtimes u nid 2 b smart enuf nt 2 fal 4 their trick
itz like playin a game of truz n frenship..
wich wil u choose? trust or frenship..
i choose trust..tats de most impt u nid 2 laz a long frenship..
i love u gerl..n i hate guys..babyrika=anti guys?? hmm

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Thursday, May 17, 2007~~

4:14 AM

i dun tink i wan a guy animoe..
had enuf of dem..
i talk beta dan i speak la..i noe
but tats juz wat on ma mind now

if ma heart cn stil open 4 a guy
tat wil b kira or starboi..
no other guy..coz i noe dem de most

if i choose 2 b a les 4 sumtime,
wil tat b gud?..
gerls dun hurt gerls..

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Sunday, May 13, 2007~~

5:06 AM

went out wif hym
watch spideyman
eat lunch everitin haish
he kept complainin tat his bestie dun tink we r compatible
his bestie tink im nt perfect enuf..ask fadli 2 break wif hym

y muz he care so much bout wat his fren saes?
argh! lazi 2 explain la..

nt in de mood..but now i change ma frenster
pretendin tat i break wif hym
so his bestie wil tink i break wif hym alr
so his bestie wil nt insult him agen
ppl wil tink i break wif hym alr
but itz juz an act
childish sia fadli
care bout wat his fren so much 4 wat

his fren iz a fuckin asshole
becoz of wat he sae, ma rlationship n fadli alwaes haf conflict
n fadli stil listen 2 his fren
fren more impt dan gerlfren wat
useless guys

tired of hym..so i decide 2 break wif hym..n walk off..mayb we r reali nt compatible
now i wil juz aim 2 b hotter dan hym..goin gym wif vann..love ma gerl more dan hym!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Tuesday, May 08, 2007~~

1:57 AM

hmm do u tink i shld? shld i..haish
he is veri stress wif his ns n strugglin 2 cope wif his ns life
den diz bitch get 2 noe wif him..
i got jelez n angry but i didnt offend him la
walao! diz bitch no common sense ar..retarded izit
he alr haf gf den stil wan 2 flirt wif him..bloody shit!

we argued bout tat..he saidink too much..
but i was juz werried..
he said i kip makin him more stress
i said "if i reali make u stress, den y ask mi b ur gf?!"
he argued back "i tink itz useless tat i choose u as ma gf, waste ma time"..
i was stuck..speechless..damn upset..
i didnt argue back but cry softly..
aft a while, he realised he hurt ma feelin..YA U HURT MIE BADLY!
he apologised 4 wat he said juz nw
i juz replied "ya u r forgiven..u said those tings, tat hurt ma feelin n now sae sori"
he kept sayin sori..i got fed up n juz gif in 2 him

mayb he's rite..i stressed him more..not a gud gf
useless gerlfren..useless rika..bein wif mi is juz a waste of tyme..
too emotional..too werried..nt understandin..
IF U TINK IM LIKE TAT, Y U STEAD WIF MIE AT DE FERST PLACE?!!
i feel like lettin him go eventhough i love him more dan ma life..
lettin him go might improve his life..
he might a beta gf tat understand al de shit in his life
im juz nt gud enuf..nt qualified 2 b his gf..

he tinks i cn 4get bout wat he sae so easili..n b in a gud mood agen
im nt like tat! im nt like tat!..i cannot 4get tings easili xpeciali wen its hurtin mie! im nt lyke u hu 4get everitin so fast n start anew..im nt de same..if 1 dae i decide 2 leave u, dun comin askin mi 4 patch..dun feel regret..becoz if u do tat, u wil make mi even worse..at de start of our love, u change mie 2 improve ma life n now u r de 1 hu is causin mie 2 change agen..change in a bad wae, like wat i was b4..

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Saturday, May 05, 2007~~

1:43 AM

2nd mth anniversary!..wuHu..finalli 2 mths sia..so happie..
he book out laz nite aft i came back frm town
went town wif sha n her guy fahmi
so fun sia..mi n sha wear nice2 but fool around wif fahmi
make fun of ppl n all..haha lame sia
as we walk, ppl tink i sgl
gt diz emo guy sae hi 2 mi..haha crazy im nt sgl ok

den saw hady mirza n his gerl( malaysia actress )
hady so tal la..dey look so moody n ego sia
saw sha x boyfren..haha tat idiot bastard
saw anugerah skin guy..so cute!
saw 2 guys tat noe mi but nv mit mi b4..
i get 2 noe wif dem a few mths ago but nv mit dem
1 of dem so cute la..feel like kissin him
lastli saw ma guy bestfren..die die!
i was walkin beside fahmi wen i saw ma guy fren
scare he get de wrg idea n tel ma guy

den we go wheelock place 2 repair ma hp
wen i reach home, tat cute guy cal mi sia
he wanna mit mi agen..he sae he kinda like mi n de wae i dress up
haha den ma guy put wher sia..? dustbin ar?..siao!

aft we hang up, ma guy cal
so shocked! tout he book out 2dae but he book out ytd
he told mi he failed his weapon handlin test
due to he was nt train coz he was on mc
i felt bad 4 him..he passed al his other tests
but fail diz weapon test..haiyo
de worst tink is he gona b posted 2 tekong
NXT 2 WEEKS..haiz..4 about 2 or 3 wks
he wil b trained dere

aft he told mi tat, ma tears start 2 fal
felt like life iz upside down..
speechless
how cn i cope diz?
ma examz comin den hes goin awae
reali depressed n emotional!
but i wil b fine la..
i hope so..haish!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Tuesday, May 01, 2007~~

3:17 AM

todae veri special dae!
mit ma syg aft 1wk nv c him..
mit him awhile onli but at least get 2 spend tyme wif him
haiyoyoyo luv him xo much la
tak bole tahan ar..hahax
we took some pics 2gether..

de other ting iz sha iz now ATTACHED!
aft so long single, she finali found sum1
tat sum1 haf de same character as mie sia
ma twin bro..haha ma guy version..

hmm i find ma mly paper iz more difficult dan ma eng paper
haiz haiz..quite stressed wif ma upcomin examz
i tink i wil fail ma history n maths lor
others mayb ok la..hope so

ma heart was kidnapped by u