☜☞ Hold on to me and never let me go ☜☞
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If I were a boy, Even just for a day
 Id roll out of bed in the morning
 And throw on what I wanted and go
 Standing outside my house

Trying to apologize
 You’re so ugly when you cry
 Please, just cut it out
 [Chorus]
 Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not

Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
 But you put on quite a show
 You really had me going

But now it’s time to go
 Curtain’s finally closing

That was quite a show
 Very entertaining
 But it’s over now

Go on and take a bow
 Grab your clothes and get gone
 You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
 Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one
 This just looks like the re-run
 Please, what else is on
 (Chorus)
 And the award for, the best lie goes to you
 For making me believe that you could be
 Faithful to me
 Let's hear your speech ohh
 How about a round of applause
 Standing ovation


♥ PROFILE

Photobucket babyrika
30 oct 1991.
18
ite simei
single bitch

♥ DESIRES

♥ FRIENDS

ain
shasha
jEnNy
vaNN
opicK
yaNis
jOsepH
tAUFIK
SHA
jinx

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Wednesday, June 27, 2007
10:50 AM

since im sgl now, guys start 2 come agen
wen wil dey get lost??
al i do to dem is reject dem
n for sum lucki ones, i went out wif dem
but reject dem stil

b yourself dae is near..hmm
i gona b maself for de laz yr in beatty
i dun tink i cn make to sec 5
i tink i gona wear sumthin simple but classy

for racial harmony dae..
i gona wear ma laz yr baju kurong
black colour..haha

if i leave diz sch diz yr
i wil miss ma frenz but i'll b happie
if dey cn make it 2 sec 5
n i wil juz leave ma secondary sch life
n change ma daily routine for ITE
to ma peeps, i noe u wan mi to b wif u guys til end of sec 5
but i noe ma strength n capability..
i dun tink i cn make it..but i wil try ma veri bez
but if i disappoint u, im sorri but appreciate al ur support

wat greats frenz i haf in beatty
eventhough de sch sux alot
but de students rox
dun b like mi k guys
try to make de best for ur future
b4 itz too late n end up lyke mie
i haf 2 find a new path aft sec sch life

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Friday, June 22, 2007
4:08 AM

at 1pm met Arif at bshan mrt
he was so chubby..i like his teddy bear like body
hehe hes cute too
went to the cathay to watch fantastic 4
watch for de 2nd tyme
hehe i dun mind watchin agen becoz arif haven watch it
we had our ferst kiss in de threate hehe

aft de show, i promised 2 mit seri n sha at town at 3.30pm
wen de movie ends, i went 2 de toilet
den i msg sha tat de movie alr end
suddenly both of dem went in de toilet
n gave mi a surprised..noti frenz i haf
haha aft tat we walked to town n proceed to cathay cineleisure
ate burger king dere..arif's lil bro n his gf came to join us for a while
arif's lil bro wan 2 follow us but arif disallow..dey argue for awhile
n arif's lil bro gave up n walked awae..poor ting...hmm

we decide 2 seperate..seri n sha went 2 taka i tink
den mi n arif went to de park at somerset..
arif found a marlboro light cigarette bow
inside de box deres 14 sticks
he juz took it..haha lucki hym..
we spend tyme alone 2gether til 6..
at 6 we went 2 mit sha n seri agen at taka garden
we tooks pics 2gether..haha it was quite funny

aft tat we took de mrt to marina bay
n bounce back to bshan haha
juz for fun..arif slept on ma shoulders in de mrt
hehe nice 2 c hym sleepin..dunno y
juz like seein hym sleep
lazli arif sent mi home..
had fun wif hym

fad wan mi back but itz too little too late
haha im wif a great guy i love now
fuck de past kiss de future
haha lame!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Thursday, June 14, 2007
10:41 AM

went to watch fantastic four todae
wif sha, ma god bro n ma lil bro
ma god bro came late coz hes frm sch
so we waited 4 hym in frm of de cinema..
while waitin, we walked ard j8..
suddenly in from of mi was ma x,
de x tat i love hym so much
eventhough we stead for awhile
but de moments we had wif each other
were unforgettable..

we stopped walkin n he asked mi
wher am i goin..am i watchin movie..
i asked hym back too
he said hes watchin de same movie n same tyme
i was surprised..i was happie..
hehe den we walked seperate distance

i was so surprised..i was too excited..
n i didnt notice he was behind mie wen i sae
"eeee...unexpected"
haha den sha saw hym lookin at mie
den she told mie tat he was behind uz..
haha i turned behind n i saw hym smilin..
walao! paisey sia..

den itz tyme 2 go in de theatre
saw hym agen at de fast food corner..
he asked mie wana go in 2gether
but i sae u go ahead ferst
becoz of ma silly god bro la..
alwaes late n we miss 10mins of de show
wen we went in n found our seats,
syawal msg mie n asked mi hu is de guy beside mie
it was ma god bro
i told hym it was ma god bro, he replied woah, sit so near..
haha jelez sey..i asked hym wen he seat
he was 3 rows behind uz..haha i turn behind n i saw hym

aft de show, i send ma god bro at de bus stop..
while ma lil bro played at arcade..
aft sendin hym off, mi n sha went back 2 de arcade
den syawal was dere..haiyo..im so hapie
c hym so mani tymes todae..
den ma lil bro took so long playin
until syawal went off ferst..but wen he walked pass mie
he pinch ma cheek n sae bubbye..
wuhu!!!! so touched so high so happie!

i wil nv 4get todae becoz todae is de ferst dae
i went out wif de 3 most impt peeps in ma life
n saw ma beloved x
had fun takin pics wif sha..
lazli i forgotton bout fad..no more shit bout hym
now is juz mie..bout relationship n true love
relationship cn wait
i wont find ma true love
let ma true lover find mie..

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Monday, June 11, 2007
8:17 AM

we break up..i dunno how 2 xplain de reason

but diz is de conversation i had wif hym..tat coz de break up

rika: do u feel tat our relationship is a bit diff now? like sumthin is nt de same?
fad: haha no comment..
rika: y u laugh? im seriuz ok..i feel like diz 4 de past few daes..
fad: no comment..
rika: cn u stop sayin no comment? sae sumthin else plz
fad: i dunno im juz bein cool
rika: ok den nvm..haf u seen de anniversary comment i gave u at ur frenster? u didnt log in 4 sumtime alr rite?
fad: haven ar..didnt log in coz ma com alwaes hang n laggin..
rika: ok den..hope u c it coz i used so much tyme doin it
fad: mayb 2molo la..
rika: itz ok..no nid to c yet la..nt impt at al
fad: anitin la
rika: wats wrg wif u? u seems diff
fad: diff?? no la..im bein cool..cool is wat i am
rika: u cal tat cool?..tats ego to mie
fad: ego? wat makes u tink so?
rika: de wae u talk to mie..isnt tat ego?..wen im seriuz, ure jokin..
fad: y b so seriuz?..in life we muz haf fun..even everi pain we muz haf fun too..
rika: u stil wana haf fun wen u nid 2 pay attention 2 ur life more now??
fad: ya..life nid 2 njoy..
rika: den wat bout mie? do u nid mie in ur life?..or u nid mi juz 2 njoy urself?..al ma help 4 u iz wasted..
fad: i dunno la..mayb u dunno de dark side of mie yet..im changin to a demon now
rika: since u noe ure changin into a demon?..dont u wana change?..al diz while, didnt i help u to change..
fad: i tink im gud enuf..i nid nt change animore..
rika: fine..u dun wana change, tats ur prob tats ur life..but do u nid mie or do u nid juz love?
fad: i nid not love..i nid life..i chose life..



i was so upset..fuckin disappointed..
i didnt reply hym aft he said tat..wat more cn i sae?
am i ur dog or wat? or am i ur entertainment?
al diz while, u juz tink of enjoyin..
den wat for u stead wif mie?!! wat for?!
oh god! gif mie strength 2 overcome diz!
to ma peeps..he let uz down..we tout he was ma true lover
but he was juz a freak! idiot freak!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Friday, June 08, 2007
9:14 AM

haish..i cannot accompany hym to de doc appointment todae..
but hiz bestie went wif hym
i was waitin for hym 2 msg mie de whole dae..
i wana noe wat de doc says..but nth frm hym
til 10pm..i cannot stand it so i msg hym
den he told mi he went out wif his bestie, bestie's gf, his 1st x n her bf..
went 2 watch movie..
i was like..damn! u r stil sick n u stil wana njoy..
wats de use goin 2 de doc appointment?..

he told mie hes goin 2 torn at changi..fishin..wif his bestie diz sun..
woah! so enjoyable uhh..i dunno y im feelin down..
mayb becoz wat im tinkin is..
i took care of u..werried bout u..wan u 2 get wel asap!
n u stil wana go njoy..de reason u gave mie is
"im gettin well so itz nt a big matter im hangin out wat.."
ya nt a big matter??..den nxt tyme take care of urself..
i care 4 u so much but u dun even take xtra care of urself..
useless..ma help was useless..

wen i didnt haf ani mood 2 tok 2 hym..
he sae "rilek la..im juz chillin"
rilek rilek...rilek ur head la..! u noe i hate tat werd
ya im sensitive..so?..im bein mie..
take it or leave it..
p.s: hope u guys like ma new song on ma blog

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Tuesday, June 05, 2007
8:41 AM

to de bloody screamo n anonymous..dun tink i dunno u la..
nk hang aku tk de care pe..kecot ke pe sial..nk hang dpn muke aku ar..
nk hang thru frenster n blog aku..pk aku heran pe..
babi sundal nye org..klao tk puas ati ngn aku, jumpe aku ar..
bodo siak aku g mataer ngn jantan haram mcm kau..
mmg naseb ar pompan sial kau dpt kau jd mataer dier..

aku ade berak kepale kau pe..sampai kau nk hang aku care taik mcm nie
sial la..tgk muke kau ulu la..kecot..bbual pakai suardlm pe sak..
ehk pompan, nk maki aku konon..beh mintk maaf..
sial la..jantan kecot betine pn kecot pe..
sajak ar krg due..hrp krg laz long long mcm konek jantan kau ar..

nk hang aku, suro pompan start ulu..ape nye care la..
klakar sak..
ehk sial! klao kau nk hang aku, aku tk psl..tapi tkmo kecot la sak..
buang mase aku jek lyn org mcm taik nie..taik agy baek pade muke krg la sak..

aku kai nick baby, beh pompan kau nk sebok kai baby pe..aku panggil mataer aku dady pn kau nk sebok kai dady pe..ehk..get ur own style la..aku nye frenster modification pn krg nk copy pe..haha aku role model krg ehk..alalalala maceh byk2..tk sangke ade org mnat aku..haha prangai bdk2 kecik..da nk masok ns pn ade otak nk pk ar sial..umor da bape sak..mat skudai mina taik..haha

for ma peeps..dey r juz plain jelez bout mi n fad..
fuck dem la..no matter how dey try 2 show off tat dey dare 2 attack mie..
de more dey look like idiots..idiots oso haf brains la..nt like dem
stupid shit couple..hope dey laz long becoz both of dem reali compatible..
haha..compatible becoz of their shit faces..haha..
i delete de tagboard..n i gona put a new one..
do feel free 2 tag orite..especiali both of tat assholes..
one word 4 dem "stupid"..

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Monday, June 04, 2007
7:55 AM

damn! diz mornin receive a unknown cal..sleepy2 oso i ans de cal
it was FAD!! hes at alexandra hospital since sat..
he cn b discharge 2dae..but he cannot reach his parents..
cal his house fon ngage den cal his parents hp..dey didnt ans..
his onli hope was mie..
he haf no money wif him n clothes..
his mom took his clothes home n his wallet..

i was so shocked but luckili hes feelin much beta..
i quickly rush n xplain to ma mom
tel her de truth tat if i dun help hym, he cannot go home..
ma mom understands but she nid mi 2 brin sha along..
so i asked sha..n she agree 2 help mie..
thkz alot babe..

i quickly search for clothes tat cn fit hym..
ma mom asked mi whether i haf money for de taxi fares..
i sae no..wats on ma mind is 2 mit hym..
ma mom gave mie $50 for de taxi fares..
i was so happie tat she helped mie..
she asked mie 2 promise her tat aft everitin is settled,
i haf 2 go home straight..so i did..

wen we arrived at alexandra hospital, we searched 4 his ward..
otw to his bed, de smell of de hospital medicine or de patients urine or wateva la..
make mi headache sia..cannot stand de smell..most of de patients in his ward, were veri old..
hes de onli young one..haha..i was so happie 2 c hym..but i pity hym..
his throat was infected real bad..i gave his clothes 2 change..
luckily de clothes was not too loose 4 hym..

wen he asked de nurse bout dischargin, de nurse sae he nid 2 check his temperature
at 3 oclock! damn..another 3 hrs sittin dere doin nth..
but itz ok..we juz talk n wait..sha was veri bored..but she dun mind..
deres mani kind of ppl dere..dun wanna talk bout tat..hahha
at 3pm, no sign of de stupid doc..until bout 3.30pm, den de doc came n check fad..
den fad haf 2 change his anti-biotics..wait 4 de nurse til 3.45pm..
den muz wait 4 de mc..he got mc 4 2wks..

i asked sha 2 accompany mie 2 teckwhye den we go home 2gether
but she refused..she wana take de shuttle bus to de mrt, den take de mrt back home
i persuade her but she stubborn..so fad n i took de taxi 2 teckwhye..
went 2 his house..fad banged de door until his mom was shocked..
he scolded his mom 4 everitin..4 not fetchin hym n ans de damn fon..
his house was in a mess..totali messy..
but i dun mind la..his mom dun reali tok 2 mie..
den his dad came home aft werk..he stared at mie as if he dun like mie..

lazli fad get mie a taxi..so i reach home ard 7pm..hmm..
im werried bout hym..but i noe hes de kind of guy "automatic"
he wil eat his medicine regularli n get as much rez as he cn..
ILOVEU

ma heart was kidnapped by u

Saturday, June 02, 2007
9:21 AM

3wks..3 long wks..
i didnt mit hym at al..
i miss hym so much..werried bout hym
hes sick since de beginnin of diz wk..
havin high fever..sore throat..
im scared if diz symtoms wil result hym havin dengi fever..
coz he went to tekong b4 diz..

plz god..dun let anitin worser happen to hym..
i cnt bear to c hym sufferin..i love hym n i dun wan hym to leave mie..
gif hym de strength..plz i beg u..
let mi suffer instead..i deserve tat more dan hym..

on de dae he book in back to camp on vesak dae..he told mi he wil b bookin out at 8am on sun
due to he late book in laz wk..he usuali book out on everi sat afternoon..hmm
den i found out juz now frm his campmate tat..
he alr book out ytd coz he was veri sick..
i was fuckin shocked..i wan 2 noe hows he was feelin..if his condition is veri bad,
i nid to go n visit hym at his house..die2 oso i go dere..even if ma mom disallow or wana gif mi a tighter curfew..
mayb if he c mie, he might feel beta..i noe how 2 gif hym de strength..
juz simple..show ma love n care for hym..tats wat he nids de most..

p.s: 3mth anniversary comin soon.. xD

ma heart was kidnapped by u