☜☞ Hold on to me and never let me go ☜☞

~~Wednesday, December 26, 2007~~

7:42 AM

mornin went for de social werker appointment..haix..tok tok onlie larh..den went home take a rest b4 i go out for xmas..

evenin went to ma long lost childhood fren, CASPER, for xmas..we lost cntct wif each other since we haf to go to a diff primary sch..aft 10 yrs i didnt c hym, hes so diff..more smart n tall..he seems to b a frenly guy..well ate turkey, spagettie n for dessert was cheesecake..haha yum yum..wel didnt haf tyme to take pics wif casper coz dere were lots of guests..but b4 i went off, he wanted to take a pic wif mie, n everione was teasin us.." casper n rika returns! cn both sides set a date for their engagement?! haha"..i was blushin lyke hell, so does casper..haha..hope i could get close to hym like we used to..but both of us changed so much, i dun tink tat could b possible larh..hmm..nvm bout tat..

lazli i cnt wait for tml!!! ITE APPLICATION RESULTS!! wee!! den fri gona dyed ma hair brown! haix gona mish ma orangy hair badly sia!! ouh nvm..for de sake of sch..hehe!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Tuesday, December 25, 2007~~

8:54 AM

sent de guests ytd nite..mish dem alr..hehe..but had a great fun tyme wif dem..hmm i saw ritza tryin 2 get to noe a gerl now..so guez hes movin on n forgotten mie..wich iz gud..but i felt a bit sad..i noe im tryin hard to 4get hym but it takes tyme..haix..i found diz song frm imeem..itz kinda tells wat i reali felt since hes gone..somedae i guez somedae..haix

tml i haf social worker appointment agen..haiz so leceh n mlz larh..

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Sunday, December 23, 2007~~

10:21 AM

gosh!! too bz n tired to post sey..aww wher shld i begin..k on 22nd fetch mie god motha n her gf..but b4 goin 2 de airport went to kenduri ferst..haha met ma cousins larh sey..huhu!..den ard 10pm went off to de airport!..b4 i go on let mie show u ma lil bro new hair cut..! haha he cut a few hours b4 goin to de kenduri..

kecoh cousins

22nd dec..AIRPORT

while waitin for guests in de airport

mom loves wen her baby kisses her

mom hates wen her baby make sexy lips!!

23rd dec..diz mornin..went to sentosa by cable car..

mom n mie in cable car

lil bro in cable car

den the merlion...

lil bro n lion berg

lil bro n godmom's gf in lion mouth

nxt stop for lunch at IMAGES OF S'PORE

ma godmom n her gf

1 boy 3 ladies

vehicle

nxt stop VIVO CITY!

den den ORCHARD!!

LASTLY esplanade!

ouh yea wif al tat fun..tml 24th iz de laz dae of their trip..sending tyme off at nite but b4 tat goin geylang shoppin ferst..haiyoyoyo..LOL!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Friday, December 21, 2007~~

7:36 AM

ouh sooooo tired agen..cleaning de whole house by maself..i juz leave mom to rest..gota clean de house coz tml ma god mommy frm thailand comin to s'pore..!! wee!! i mish her so much sey!!! but b4 fetchin her at 10pm tml, gota go kenduri arwah auntie mok at uma nenek ferst..haix juz mish ma late aunt so much..mish her food, her laughter, her care n concern, her kindness n de tyme we had 2gether..i juz mish her by ma side..shes lyke ma 2nd mom..oh god y u took her awae frm mie..ferst u took ma step grand daddy, den u took ma aunt..haix..

aww..enuf of de emo larh rika..haha..gona mit ma beautiful cousinz tml..haha camwhorin agen..huhu!!..cool uh..lazli wen i came home ytd, ritza called mie twice..i wana ans but ma pp8 abez..haix..wth he wan sumore..we got nth left to tok about animore..we r over alr per..ape agy dier nk siak..haix..n btw ritza, if u tink of askin mie to b wif u agen, mimpi arh!..im nt gona fal for ur fuckin swit werds..AND I HATE YOU!!!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Thursday, December 20, 2007~~

8:27 AM

soooo tired wen i came back from nenek house..! so i juz update de pics larh.. btw 2dae was de ferst tyme mie n ma cousins took pics 2gether..haha de bonds wif ma 2cousins r goin quite wel..yeah! happie tao..

ma new red skinny

pics we took at shaw plaza mac near ma nenek house

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Wednesday, December 19, 2007~~

11:06 AM

haix haix im so bored!!! i cnt wait 4 de release of de results for JAN 08 INTAKE diz 27th..haix haix..now alr 3am of hari raye haji..stil nt sleepy..hmm gona mit everi1 at grandma house tml..i dun wana kip quiet animore..i wana build back ma bond wif ma cousins tat was broken a few yrs ago..aft diz misunderstanding..aku tk nk sombong agy arh..lao aku tk bboal, drg pn tk bboal..tk sala kn lao aku nk make ferst move..stakt bboal ngn drg..at least raye happening sket..sedere mare aku sume maseh kecik2 cume de ferst 3 larh..includin mie yg da teenagers..agy2 kite 3 pompan..mish de childhood i had wif dem sey..haix

tml noon gona get ma skinny..den ard 3 g uma nenek..mesti makcik pakcik aku tanye psl results..cian mom n dad sey..mesti drg malu sia..aku acad tapy kene masok NITEC..tk le promote..i hope drg tk kutok mie in frnt of ma parents arh..drg mulot kn mcm sial..kite satu familie pn nk gossip2 n uat fitnah..umor jek da tue p prangai lebe rabak dari adeq aku sia..nvm larh..werds cnt brin mie down..but dunno bout ma parents..haix..i hate livin like diz..i gona change alot since nxt yr..n wil b changin to gud nt bad..cnt sae much now coz i could b influenced rite..but i wil control maself nt too..coz now i influenced bad enuf alr..i noe how it feels wen u r caught doin wrg tings..diz is ma plan n ma new start to make a beta life n future ahead! YEAH!!

ouh yarh!! ASIAN IDOL HADY MIRZA WON!! damn fuckin bullshit sia!!
i wan INDIAN IDOL TO WIN! ABHIJEET SAWANT!! i love hym sia!! haha
diz is de video clip peterpan n abhijeet sings TAK BISAKAH n kya muhje pyaar hai! HINDUSTAN FEVER ARH!! WEE!!

a song i love i fav now!! diz is al tat i got to sae if i c tat asshole ritza!!

You always check yourself
In every mirror you see, day and night
And it is such a shame
Your vanity is to blame
Oh why don't you knock it off

It is the pointlessness
That's got me loving less
I cannot handle that you're such a wannabe
You're caught up in yourself
And you don't even see

I won't be crying when I'm lonely
'Cause I'll be making sure I'll have a good time
Hey nothing wrong when I'm alone now
'Cause I'm alone and I'm proud
I won't be crying when I'm lonely

I'm sure you don't believe
That anybody can tell you're a fool
I'll bet that you believe
They only think that you're cool
And a handsome devil too

But baby trust me now
You better turn around
'Cause otherwise you're gonna fall and hit the ground
'Cause all this beauty boy
Won't last eternally

I won't be crying when I'm lonely
'Cause I'll be making sure I'll have a good time
Hey nothing wrong when I'm alone now
'Cause I'm alone and I'm proud
I won't be crying when I'm lonely

I won't be crying when I'm lonely
'Cause I'll be making sure I'll have a good time
Hey nothing wrong when I'm alone now
'Cause I'm alone and I'm proud

I won't be crying when I'm lonely
'Cause I'll be making sure I'll have a good time
Hey nothing wrong when I'm alone now
'Cause I'm alone and I'm proud
I won't be crying when I'm lonely

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Tuesday, December 18, 2007~~

2:50 AM

ouh gosh!! got ma results..n guez wat..i got 11 points sia!!..cnt promote sec 5!!..but aft i heard frm ma principal bout de NEW DIRECT ENTRY TO FULL TIME HIGHER NITEC COURSES UNDER JOINT INTAKE EXERCISE..diz allow us 4 NA to enter higher nitec on 2008..but ONLY if we get 19 points or less for our 5 best subj includin eng n maths..but i got 20!!! WTF!!! 1 more point to promote n to higher nitec..i fuckin hate diz sia!!!! i haf to go nitec now..haiz..nvm larh..diz r ma choices..i juz applied for ite! weee! hope i get ma ferst 3 choices..

1st ~ retail [bishan]
2nd ~ tourism [clementi]
3rd ~ multimedia tech [simei]
4th ~ hair fashion & design [simei]
5th ~ food & beverage operations [clementi]
6th ~ pastry & baking [clementi]
7th ~ nursing [simei]
8th ~ culinary skills [clementi]
9th ~ fitness training [clementi]
10th ~ digital audio & video [simei]

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Monday, December 17, 2007~~

6:50 AM

hell shit to bloody ritza..he went to asked sha2 ma new num..den sha didnt noe wat to do so she juz gaf it to hym..den he asked mani ques whether sha knew y i change num or wat..den sha gaf an excuse tat she didnt noe much coz both of us didnt cntct much alr..aft awhile ritza cal mi hp n maki2 mie..he blamed mie tat i changed his frenster passwerd..WICH I DIDNT LARH..i went to log in his frenster, n de passwerd was stil de same..WTH!!..he forgot den he blamed mie! NONSENSE! LAME FUCKER!!..den his shoutout was "dun eva2 change ma fuckin passwerd n stop playing childish game"..
WTF!! u forget ur fuckin passwerd den put al de blame on mie!! u cntct mie back juz for ur frenster n blamed tat i caused de silent break n didnt inform u bout ma new num!!.. SIAL LARH..i dun care u wan to put de blame on mie arh..hu playin game here sia..go n play ur fuckin hell game n win arh..but wats de prize STMF?!!

argh! go to hel wif tat shit..tml results!! cnt wait!! n gona get ma skinny!! weee!!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Friday, December 14, 2007~~

5:12 AM

woke up den look at his pics..n cried agen..haix wats wrg wif mie..cn i stop tinkin of hym..haix..den go n get ready for de medical social worker appointment..went dere wif mie mom jek..ferst ma social worker took to mie alone den i switch wif ma mom..aft al tat chat, we agreed to come for another appointment on 26 dec..oh gosh, wen wil diz end..haix..den went to toapayoh n eat dinner..den went shoppin awhile..n guez wat, i ordered a skinny jeans sey..guez wich colour i chose?? red or orange??..haha cnt wait..gona get dem soon..huhu!!..hmm hope hes doin fine without mie..haix :(

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Thursday, December 13, 2007~~

7:17 AM

y muz i cry wen he wan leave?..y sia?..i juz like hym per nt love per..y muz i cry so much..weird sia he gave mie excuse as ppl change..hah!..y did i fall for sum1 hu cn change his feelings for sum1 else weneva he wans..do i mean anitin to hym..am i ur crush or juz a fren..but now wat matters is u like ur long lost fren instead of mie..n i wil get u out of ma mind..seriuz aft u did al diz to mie, do u tink we shld stil b frenz?..for wat?..u let mi go is alr like lettin go off our frenship..
forgif n forget kn..ouh of coz!.. i forgif u n gona forget bout us n forget you..i juz find itz beta tat we take it as we dunno each other n move..gud luck k wif her..bye

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Wednesday, December 12, 2007~~

5:24 AM

ouch ouch argh!!!!!!!.. had a checkup at SGH diz mornin.. was so sleepy but force maself..ma mom, lil bro n sha2 accompany mie dere..
reached dere half an hr b4 de appointment..went to had ice teh susu n cheese egg sandwich at de food court YUM YUM! den head to de O&G centre for ma appointment..ma CID assistant came a few mins late..gave ma particulars n IC at de counter.. n fuckin guez wat?? tat old nurse spell ma num wrongli! argh hate wen ppl mispell ma name..den went to sit n wait for ma turn..wen ma turn arrived, de nurse took ma blood pressure, temperature, ht n wt..den she asked to..erm duno how to sae..uh get some urine for her..hahah..she gave mie 2 cups n told mie to fill at least half for each..she told mie to take ma tyme no nid to rush..haha i was a bit nervous..juz a pretty bit..den wen to de toilet n alr felt wana urinate..haha silly!..

aft tat had to go to de CONSULTATION room..de doc ask mie loads of ques..den examine ma whole body..had to b naked sia..de room is freezin cold sey..den she touch touch TOUCH!!!! argh im bein molest!! huahuahua..aft tat get dressed n sat beside de doc..she wan to take ma blood for a test..n i began to werry sia..itz been like 4 yrs since i had ma laz injection..n diz injection is diff sia..she poke de veri thin needle n took 2 tube of ma blood..ma blood was maroon haha! kendeng!.. de size of de tube was like our science experimental test tube larh..haha! n wen she took out de needle was de most fucked up part..it hurt bit larh..den ma whole felt numb..haha den haf to wait for de nxt appointment date..itz on 10jan..wah haf to wait for 1 more mth..argH!!!

finalli went to toapayoh n ate lunch..i cnt eat much sey..was havin bad headache al de wae aft de injection..hehe! weak arh! haha.. but no matter how hurts de headache was, deres tyme for some shoppin..ma mom bought mie a long sleeve blouse..tat ma pic wearin it..haix now feelin unwell..guez gona haf fever soon..haiyo..

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Monday, December 10, 2007~~

9:54 AM

played this song
✖[CONFESSIONS OF A BROKEN HEART BY LINDSAY LOHAN]✖
i modified the lyrics based on mie and ritza..
so this great meaningful song is dedicated to both ritza and ma dad

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter
I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better
And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
A couple [FAMILY] in crisis that only grows older

Why’d you have to go
Why’d you have to go
Why’d you have to go

rika to ritza, rika to ritza [DAUGHTER TO FATHER]
I am broken but I am hoping
rika to ritza, rika to ritza [DAUGHTER TO FATHER]
I am crying, a part of me is dying and
These are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart

And I read all your old notes, your final message
[AND I WEAR ALL YOUR OLD CLOTHES, YOU POLO SWEATER]
I dream of another you
The one who would never (never)
Leave me alone to pick up the pieces
A lover [DADDY] to hold me, that’s what I needed

So why’d you have to go
Why’d you have to go
Why’d you have to go!!

rika to ritza, rika to ritza [DAUGHTER TO FATHER]
I don’t know you, but I still want to
rika to ritza, rika to ritza [DAUGHTER TO FATHER]
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me
Cause these are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart

I love you,
I love you
I love you
I....!!!!!
I love you!!

rika to ritza, rika to ritza [DAUGHTER TO FATHER]
I don’t know you, but I still want to
rika to ritza, rika to ritza [DAUGHTER TO FATHER]
Tell me the truth...
Did you ever love me!!!?
Did you ever love me?
These are.....
The confessions...of a broken heart

Ohhh....yeah

I wait for the postman to bring me a letter..

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Sunday, December 09, 2007~~

7:15 AM

tok to opick laz nite..make sure u kip ur promises KATAK..BLUEK!..a survey i did..

1. Rate your social life from 1-10.
•► 5

2. Is your hair long or short?
•► short

3. Do you have many friends in real
life?
•► last time..now only my dear
girlfriends..

4. Name of friends you last hang out
with for today?
•► stayed at home..

5. Do you love chicken?
•► yes..

6. Last three drinks you had?
•► orange juice..plain water..milo

7 . Do you eat fish?
•► yesh

8. Do people mispronounce or spell
your name incorrectly?
•► yesh for ma real name onlie

9 . Who was the last guy you have
crush with ?
•► him..still ongoing..

10 . Last guy who crush on you?
•► hmm deres TWO..but i like one onlie

11. Any food that made you smile
today?
• ► ate maggie sial!..smile for wat?

12 . Name one thing you have in common
with your friends?
•► the love for freedom..

13 . Do you trust your friends?
•► one onlie!

14. How old will you be in five years?
•► 21!!! weeee...!

15. Do you believe in love?
•► YESH!

16. Except for family and friends, who
are you in love with?
•► hmm nt ready to fall for ani1 yet..but i got a crush on hym

17 . Do you honestly believe you have
found the right guy/girl?
•► nv did!..wish i could find de rite 1

18. Are you someone’s best friend?
•► yes of course..

19. Do you love music?
•► yes duh..

20 . Last song you listened to?
•► sum 41 with mie

2 1. Would you rather play an
instrument or sing?
•► play instrument

22. Who was the last person you talked
to?
•► BRO

23. Who was the last person to call
you dear?
•► opick but he called mie HUNNIE! bluek!

24. Would you consider yourself a
worrier?
•► alwaes

25. Do you consider yourself as an
EMO?
•► emo as in emotional den yesh!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Saturday, December 08, 2007~~

6:35 AM

2dae wen to lavender..went to beach rd..wif mom n dad..bought loads of food n 3 new thai dramas..went home had a bad headache..den started watchin 1 drama while msgin opick..his msgs was diff..n alwaes everi mornin he wil msg mie but 2dae no mornin msg..he seems to b quiet..so i tout he was in a bad mood or was it bout ma new fren..since he noe i got to noe a new fren, he seems to tok to mie differently..especialli laz nite wen we tok..i kept askin hym is dere sumthin wrg..but he sae nth..everitime i asked, dier jwb tk de pape..haiz..

i felt lost n wanted to b alone for a while..juz too much tings on ma head..im sowie if i offended u but i juz felt so fucked up..mayb i tink too much..but i care for his feelings sey..i dun like org simpan2 prasaan drg..haiz..

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Friday, December 07, 2007~~

12:24 AM

huhu! went to CID ytd!! argh de CID was 1 fucker sia!! he wan to noe so mani tings for ma statement of de case!! irritatin sia!! den he wil b de permanent CID for ma life record! ani shit i do wrg in de future tat is reported wil b sent to hym! WTH!!!
came back so moody sia! n de shit tat comes out frm ma stupid dad mouth make mie more.........dammit!!!

but like a miracle, i got to noe a HOTTIE, Mal..get to noe hym n tok to hym..wah he brighten up ma dae sey..i kept on smilin non stop larh sey..no guy cn make mie smile as much as hym b4..huhu!! hes a swit guy n we got silly stuffs in common..huhu!! midnite tok to opick 4 awhile..opick uploaded new pics tat he tinks like bdk2..but to mie cute per!!..haha!!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Wednesday, December 05, 2007~~

7:37 AM

hoho!! im feelin super great w/o hym sia! even im facin some probs wif familie n police, but im happie everi dae..even i cn go no where but i haf ppl i love ard mie..yarh itz a bore but hey suffer now njoy lata yarh..onlie those hu understand mie r de ones hu truli love mie..so guys if ure tinkin of wantin mie as ur gerl, u gotta tolerate ma life ma hellshit..

been tokin to opick everidae..n he called mi minarep!! noty eyh..wel u r no worse dan mie matrep..hehe jokin larh..opick new pics hot2 larh sey..mesti gerls terpkat nye..hehe bluek!!

tml haf to mit CID at 10am..damn shit! so earli..!..cn sum1 wake mie up?..hoho!

ma heart was kidnapped by u

~~Sunday, December 02, 2007~~

5:55 PM

HEAR THE SONG AND FEEL MIE

Timbaland - Apologize lyrics | LyricsMode.com

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new - yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

ma heart was kidnapped by u